Fears, Assets, Obstacles

Fears 

My biggest fear is to be satisfied with a mediocre lifestyle and never accomplish my dreams of becoming a successful architect. This fear inspires me to work hard and makes me cautious of who I allow into my life, because the people around me contribute to the quality and progress of my life. To move forward on my journey I can use my fear as further motivation not to give up on following my dreams and being a disappointment to myself and my mom who is depending on me to succeed. This fear is here because I know many people who have had dreams they always imagined following but got caught in circumstances along the way that have limited and in some cases stopped them from following through. What bothers me is that they all cope with the unhappiness it brings instead of changing it although I understand it's not easy to sacrifice stability for a dream that may not work. In a way I can control my fear by accepting that if I were to die at any moment, that's as far as my story will have gone and I will be remembered for what I have done and am currently doing, and if I'm lucky enough someone will remember my dreams too. I healthily process this fear by focusing on other things and being mindful. 

   Assets 

Assets of mine are being honest regardless of the circumstance, determined to succeed and passionate about the things I believe in. These assets help me to continue to keep my ambition and continue working to make my dreams a reality. I can continue to use them to move forward by applying them to daily living and grounding myself with them when I find myself becoming discouraged. I have the assets as positive affirmations that I am more than able to achieve whatever my heart desires if I stay true to them I will succeed one way or another. They are aspects of my character that I've come to realize I can't control even if I wanted to. If I feel strongly about something I will continue to feel that way, if I need to speak on it I will not hide my opinion and once I make up my mind I want something I absolutely have to have it. I can healthily apply my assets by using them as inspiration and motivation to continue growing and learning to reach my goals one day. 

Obstacles 

Obstacles in my life are hardships I'm facing and making difficult choices in uncomfortable situations. They are affecting me by causing stress in my day to day life but hopefully in my life to make me stronger and wiser at the end of it all. To move forward on my journey I must overcome each obstacle better than the last and not allow them to discourage me from finding my own Personal Legend. I believe these obstacles are here to make me smarter about life situations and teach me to continuously rise after I fall. I cannot control the obstacles in my life but I can control my perspective and thus control the affect they have on me. To healthily process stress and anxiety from the obstacles I face I try to focus on appreciating that I'm still alive and my situation could have been much worse than whatever it is.  

Facing Fears 

In the face of fear

 I stare 

As if it were the dark of the night

My fight or flight instincts immediately ignite

I choose to stand and I choose to battle 

Taking on unknown territory, 

Strapped tight to my saddle. 

My saddle of faith 

My saddle of pride

For they see a smile but know not of what's inside 

Each mountaintop that I must reach 

Each wave of drowning in the sea

Along the journey to becoming a better me. 

Anxiety thinks its got me trapped 

For it does not know God has my back. 

All the while I keep on growing 

Searching for the deepest knowing. 

Problems will rise,

And so they shall fall 

For I will keep fighting

Even when my back is against the wall.